Ode to CAW (as previously posted on myspace)

There for You - Flyleaf

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to

I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

Ode to NMH

I wish it were as easy as a song...

Sticking With You - Addison Road

Come on, it's me you're talking to
There's something going on inside of you
Don't have to say it, but I wish you would
Cause it would be much easier

You always hide behind yourself
You walk a lonely road with no one's help
I hate to break the news
You're headed for a fall

And if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with you
(I'm stinking with you)

Even if you try and shut me out
I'm staying here cause that's what love's about
I might let you down, but I won't let you go

So lean into me, I want to know
Everything about the fear you hold inside
Cause you and I are better than just one,

So if I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with

If that's what it means to love you
If that's what it means to have your back
If that's what it takes to show you
Then I'm in, I'm in

If I have to jump
Then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around

And if I have to jumpThen I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight, we can scream and shout

I'll push and pull
Until your walls come down
And you understand I'm gonna be around
Cuz I'm sticking with you.
(I'm sticking with you)

Matt Nathanson

So Thomas, Darren, Chelsie and I went to see Matt Nathanson last night at the State Theater in Modesto and it was so fun! He was amazing, he is not only a singer/songwriter but an entertainer. He was sooooooooo good!

i will do almost anything to go to another one of his concerts. it was such a blast!

JJ Heller

So lately i've been listening to JJ Heller all the time! i love her. her songs are so beautiful and so emotional. they keep me calm and in a good mood when i drive (i do have a tendancy toward the road rage sometimes). i have been in such a better state all around too. here are a few i love:

True Things
I’m not the clothes I’m wearingI’m not a photographI’m not the
car I driveI’m not the money I makeI’m not the things I lackI’m not the songs
that I writeI am … who I am I am who I amThere are true things inside of meI
have been afraid to seeI believe, help my unbeliefWould you say again what you
said to meI am loved and I am freeI believe, help my unbeliefI’m not the house I
live inI’m not the man I loveI’m not the mistakes that I carryI’m not the food
that I don’t eatI’m not what I’m aboveI’m not my scars and my historyThere are
true things inside of meI have been afraid to seeI believe, help my
unbeliefWould you say again what you said to meI am loved and I am freeI
believe, help my unbeliefTo your love I’m waking upIn your love I’m waking
up

All I Need
Don’t need a thingMy good Shepherd brings me
allYou are all I needYou let me catch my breathEven in the valley of deathYou
are all I needAll I need to be complete Is Your loveYour blood that covers meYou
lift up my headYou provide the wine and breadYou, You are all I needThere’s no
need to fearEven with my enemies hereYou are all I needAll I need to be complete
Is Your loveYour blood that covers meGoodness and mercy are following meYou’re
all that I needYou make a home for meWhere pastures are green as far as I seeYou
are all I needAll I need to be complete Is Your loveYour blood that covers
me

You Would Love Me Too
We could talk for hoursIt doesn’t
matterYou don’t hear a word I say‘Cause you don’t listen when I speakSo I’ll
sing insteadLa la la la la I love youOoh I really doIf you ever paid attentionI
think you would love me tooYou say you want to know meI get the feeling that
you’re telling me a lie‘Cause every time I talk about emotionYou shake your
pretty head and say goodbyeLa la la la la I love youOoh I really doIf you ever
paid attentionI think you would love me tooWhy do I love you like I doWhen you
ignore me Just like the sun ignores the moonAll you see is youI love youOoh sad
but trueIf you ever paid attentionI think you would love me too

I wonder how often God feels that way about us as in that last song. i think it's so true of me...

anyway, go download her newest CD!

truth

I've been calling and calling for you
But you answer and I shut my mouth
I've been searching and and searching for you, but myself I don't want to be found.

You say I am
You say let go
You say believe
But it's not that easy for me
You say wait
You say right now
Don't you see your already one foot at the ground

You say
I've been wicked and wild and wrong and I've wondered the price of my shame.
I've been hiding my face for so long it's a wonder that you know my name.
You say come home
You say I'm here
You say there's some things you just can't control.
You say let meYou say believe
Why do you search for the answers you already know?

You sayI am the way
and the light and the truth
Don't be mislead by the flight of your youth.
Have faith in the things you can't see to believe.
what if you had faith in me?
You say rest here
This is your home.
Don't you see that you knew I was here all along?
You see

~Saving Jane